2:30 AM and I should be studying.

So I look at people like Syesha who is on American Idol and Ande and Kelly who are having a baby probably right at this moment and I think... "Am I missing something? These really exciting things are happening to people and I am stuck at home studying for finals. LAME!" I am seriously so grateful to be in school though. God has blessed me soo much this year...

I was just looking at someone's profile from back home... and I was thinking about how much I am glad that I am not like them.. I know I'm a really nice person.

I have really tried hard to:
Be constantly moving forward and growing.
Not waste my time.
Only date someone who I can see myself marrying.
Do the right thing aka sin less (haha).

So.. Now this is reminding me of the song "I Asked the Lord"... the line "So I envied the arrogant, then I saw their destiny." (This not pertaining to Syesha or Kelly and Ande.. Just wanted to make that clear) I'm not better than anyone obviously I am very aware of this. We all stuggle.. but.... EHHHHH!! I'm bored. I think it might just be this week. Finals suck. I really should be cramming right now, but instead I am writing this.

I am seriously so blessed. I don't know. I just feel like..... My life is kind of stagnant compared to some people around me. Which is fine. It's just like Syesha is doing American Idol... I wish I was doing something with my voice. It kills me. And then Ande and Kelly are having the baby. Duh. Obviously I'm not in that place in my life... but it would nice to be on the track there you know? I'm just frustrated. It's w/e.

Sorry.. this blog is really random and anyone (if anyone) that reads it probably won't be able to understand it. :-\