Broken

Today I was reminded again of how much alike we are than we are different.
Divinely intertwined, we have all suffered from the fall
and are in constant need of our Redeemer.
Whether it be a difficult financial situation, a broken heart, or just a rough day...
He is writing the story of your redemption if you let Him.
Put it in the hands of the Ultimate Storyteller.

Broken

The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on

Almost Twenty Three

I just re-discovered my blog. This happens about once a year. I always enjoy it so that I can reflect on who I was and who I am today. The last time I wrote I was 21, still working on my undergrad, 3o pounds overweight, doing everything so my future would be set and not very content with my life. It is amazing to me the story of my life that God has written between that time and now.

Between then and now I...

Dated someone

Built a little family with amazing people

Backslid horribly

Have seen the wages of sin

Moved in with my best friend in an apartment where our boyfriends live in the one below us

Got a grown-up job

Realized how much I don't want to work at an office job for the rest of my life

Broke up with that someone

Graduated college

Went through the hardest time probably in my entire life

Have drawn closer to God than I ever have

Began to learn what it truly means to give it all to Him

Witnessed what faith and prayer can do

Rekindled some pretty amazing friendships

Been blessed with amazing new friendships

Ran a 6K

Lost 33 pounds

Got accepted into grad school at Reformed Theological Seminary for my Masters in Counseling

Been provided a live-in nanny job where I do not have to pay rent

Continue to be redeemed by my Savior

Continue to seek his face every day.

My life is no where near where I thought it would be today. Praise God for that. Everyday is a battle with ups and downs. Everyday it is essential that I cry out to Jesus and trust him to continue redeeming me.

Thank You God for where you have brought me and where you are going to take me.

"Though you have made me see troubles, many and bitter, you will restore my life again; from the depths of the earth you will again bring me up. You will increase my honor and comfort me once again." -Psalm 71:20-22